I have so many things going on right now:
1. No wheat
2. Meditating 1-2 times a day
3. Reading and using The Tapping Solution
4. Doing a liver detox
5. Drinking my green tea every day (yuck)
6. Getting enough sleep
7. Taking walks during work
8. Taking walks after work
9. Watching less TV
10. Making a new recipe each week (ha!)
11. Starting a new skin care regime
12. Thinking about becoming a vegetarian...a vegan maybe
13. Watching documentaries to inspire how I want to live my life
14. In a constant state of self-reflection
15. Learning to be in a constant state of self-acceptance
16. Reading health books
17. Blogging
18. Not stressing about money
19. And so many other little things like painting my nails, going to all my doctor and counselor appointments, journaling, new clothes, new hair, wearing lipstick every day and of course, being mindful of how much water I need to drink.
Now...I am adding something else...THE CLEANSE. It's the program that pulls sugar, dairy and nuts from my food options, puts me in the bathtub to sweat every night and overall makes me very conscious about my food choices and food plans. Thank goodness I have an amazing mom who has agreed to do The Cleanse with me so I have someone to keep me accountable and someone to complain to. Part of me thinks I might be adding a little too much stress on myself, but the other part of me is so excited about the change because I feel like my body has plateaued. I am doing all this stuff for my health and wellbeing, but it's not showing up in my body as much as I had expected. It's been 5 months already and I am still wearing the same jeans. What the hell?!?! Why aren't I at least in another size pant? Why haven't the inches been flying off of me? Again...what the hell?! The only thing I haven't taken out of my diet is sugar. It's not like I eat that much sugar...well...I just kinda lied after I took a flash to think about that statement. I guess I do eat a lot of sugar. If figured since I took out wheat (which took out fast food), and I reduced dairy and drank tons of water it would be okay for me to have ice-cream or gelato. Well...I think I have indulged a little too much. But still!...5 months and still the same pant size...come on!
So, now, with The Cleanse, I'm finally taking sugar completely out. The program is for 8 weeks. I'm seeing my nutritionist, Breckken, today so she can weight me and take my measurements, then I will see her again in 8 weeks to do the same. Although I will still be unaware of my numbers I am confident there will be a change in my physical health (i.e., less fat on my bones). It's time this plateau ended. It's time for me to breathe life back into my program with something that will really be a challenge. The list above have been changes, but none of them have been really, really, challenging.
Here's another little interesting fact: I've been reading a book called "Grain Brain" and it's saying how the wheat people eat in their diets is practically killing the functionality of the brain and effecting the productivity of our entire body's functions. Wheat turns to glucose and glucose causes all sorts of problems. In reality, every day, people are just eating loads and loads of sugar because they are eating loads and loads of wheat. The really culprit is the glucose! The freakin' sugar! I've been so concerned with taking out the wheat, but not one bit concerned about applying the same sense of urgency to taking out the refined sugar! OMG!!! No wonder I'm stuck. The next book I read needs to be about sugar. I have adapted really comfortably to a life without wheat (no problem really), but a life without sugar is a whole other thing...
My plateau dissemination lies in MY hands to resist the callings from Ben and Jerry, from Mars Inc., from C&H, and from my monthly cycle when all I can think about is filling the black hole of chocolate cravings with chocolate.
Wish me luck...I will report back in 8 weeks (or sooner) of The Cleanse results.
Thank you mom for doing this with me. I love you.
~ Kel
